That old saying the days are long, but the years are short is ringing very true with me these days.
There are days where I'm counting the hours until bedtime and it feels like time is moving in reverse, but time must be passing because we're reaching milestones at warp speed.
I am now the mostly proud mother of a five year old boy. We attended kindergarten orientation this week. He's excited and I think he's ready, but I'm not so sure I am...
My little one seems to be growing more every day. She is now talking in paragraphs and experimenting with the joys of bossing everyone around and throwing herself dramatically on the floor. There is no longer a baby in my house.
Next year she will start preschool two mornings a week and my big boy will be off to full day elementary school. Times are certainly changing around these parts.
I have spent these past five years in a haze of mothering. There are times when I felt buried under the weight of caring for little people full time, but the surprising truth is I'm also going to miss it...at least it surprised me. I am certainly looking forward to having more time and energy for my own pursuits - personal and work related - but the whole process is very bittersweet.
I think I finally really understand that my babies will grow into teenagers and eventually adults. My job is to make myself redundant. I know I have time before they're off to college, but I suspect that day will be here before I know it.
Everything is as it should be, but sometimes I just want to push the pause button and hold tight to them while they are still little enough to both fit on my lap.
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I remember that feeling. I think most mothers go through this. You'll also be glad when they grow up and leave for good. Then you'll quickly do something with their bedrooms so they won't come back. It just happens. Doesn't mean you don't love them, it's just time for them to go.
Have a terrific day. :)
Oh, yes. I am there. My five year old is registered and just waiting for summer time to get her uniforms. Am I ready to send her off into a big building all by herself? I know she is..
It is really hard to send that first one off and doubly hard to send the second. I remember watching the bus drive off with my youngest. He was waving and smiling. I had tears running down my face. About three weeks later I had found my balance and couldn't wait for him to get on the bus. Mommy had things to do!
Well you could always get a cat, that will always be small enough to flop on to your lap :) Mine is on mine right now. It's tough seeing your kids grow up, but they always do. You don't have to make yourself redundant, just make them independent. They will always come back to their mother if they want help, you will never be redundant.
I know what you mean … it feels like it is lasting forever when you're in it and then BAM … suddenly it is gone and you realize it was almost nothing and you miss it wildly. Still, you'll appreciate having some breathing room for yourself!
I know exactly how you feel... I always want to pause and breathe in every little detail of the moment/day... I always wonder how things will be different when they are older and I know that I will get to spend less time with them when they do eventually grow up and even leave the nest... and I am not looking forward to that... I look at my mother and father and see how they miss us and their grand children... how they miss spending time with all of us... living far away from them aches my heart as it does theirs... and I am so not looking forward to the time my kids and their children will do the same. Hang in their Kim... that is all I can say.
When your in it it's hard to think to slow down and enjoy....but it does go so fast it's shocking! My daughter leaves for college this fall and I swear it was kindergarten just yesterday! It is freaking me out....there is no preparing!
I remember those days. Enjoy them while they last. They go so fast. All my baby's are teenagers now.
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